Emotional Roller-coaster
Recently for the past couple of months, I’ve been through a lot. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Physically wise, I felt I’m putting on a lot of weight. During December when my colleague is on leave, I’ll be super busy attending to all complains & feedbacks in the day, and settling all paperwork at night. Because of this working arrangement, I’ve been having late lunches and later dinners (which sometimes become supper!) which caused me to lose appetite and thus the weight loss. But now that my colleague is back, we can depend on one another again. Which means my appetite came back and I gain back the weight I loss and many more! Luckily, a dance school is going to open soon at my workplace. Which means I can finally get to yoga, pilates, mtv/hip-hop dance lessons fuss-free! Yeah!
Mentally and emotionally wise, I recently got to know a very close colleague couple of mine who broke up. And it seems that they have been on rough waters more than a year ago. Oh my, from the days in Town Council where I will be sitting on the backseat facing their backs, where we will go for lunches and dinners and outings together, both of them are always in front of me and portraying the best couple image I have. I’m really shocked. Mentally. Emotionally. I’ve always believed that true love can stand through hard times and all times. I’ve always believed that as long as I got you in my heart, and you got me in your heart, any dimensions will not tear us apart. But sad to say, human emotions are fragile and unfathomable. People do change over time and so do feelings.
Thinking back when I first learned about their break-up is actually when the guy brought a new gf to our outing on New Year’s Eve. Thunder and lightning actually strike in front of me and into my heart, which freezes for that spilt second. Never before have I had this kind of sensation. I wanted to flew to that KTV pub and confront both the guy and the new gf. But as I’m working for the countdown, my duties and responsibilities tied me back. I contained my emotions then, and never showed out. Sometimes, I do admire myself for always able to portray a strong front in front of everyone when I’m breaking inside, but I guess some of us learn the hard way of life and just have the power to survive on in any kind of crisis.
Happy 2008!
Has it been so long since I blogged here? Can’t imagine that the last post is my first day of my ex-ex-job.. Yah, sad to say, I have been job hopping. Not that I want it thou. My ex-ex-job is definitely the worst job/company I’ve ever been to.
So I’ve switched to a new place (ex-job). It’s nice. Scenery is super shiok. Mammals to see everyday. But don’t know why, I’m not happy there. The position is definitely the highest I’ve attained so far, who doesn’t want to have power (people see you high up) and fame (every weekend, you get to see lots of guests and VIPs)? Everywhere you walked, people greet you like VIP. Tons of people are under you. But I’m not into this. I don’t look for power and fame in the work I do. I look for accomplishment and satisfaction. With so many politics around and surrounding me, I find the environment “not suitable”. An opportunity stuck. 2 interviews and I’m in. 2 months into the ex-job and off I go again.
And now I’m finally settled down in this new company. Haha.. Yah, will settle down in this. This is my 4th month in the new company and I’m still surviving! My HR friend is gonna kill me if I told her I’ve changed 4 jobs in a year. Hey, it doesn’t just happen to me only. My ex-classmate changed 5 jobs in the year 2007 hor! He win! And he’s finding a job again..
Well, my new working place is in a busy, exciting and entertaining environment. It’s just steps away from a certain northern NEL station. I’ve always yearned to work in this type of environment and trade. It’s like a dream fulfilled. Even thou the work is tough, tons and tons of jobs to do and clear, but I can say that I’m HAPPY. Even if I have to work till 10-11pm daily.
I’m happy with my colleagues. My manager treats me well and I’ve got a good partner (my team member) to depend on. My partner and I got this “Mo Qi". I find that he’s someone who I can share my burden with. With him around, I feel more secured. Even thou sometimes I can feel that he’s very tired with work, with so many things pending and problems to solve, he will still try his best to settle all the tricky problems and not disturb me. Over the past few months, we’ve been through a lot (air-con down, annual shutdown, countdown event, etc), we’ve more or less know each other’s work pattern. I’m comfortable working with him.
Still, every office got their pros and cons. For the past 3 months, 2 colleagues left (1 resigned and 1 transferred to another site). Now my office is shortage of 3 manpower. My manager is busy interviewing candidates and hoping to find all replacements soon. For the resigned position, 3 people have come and go for the past year. The position is very stressful and hectic. You need to deal with lots of people everyday (customers, suppliers, dealers, etc). You need to brainstorm the next upcoming events and come up with new ideas on how to promote them. Not everyone is suitable for this job. Must be able to take stress and handle time really really well.
Tomorrow, my hong kah clan “Feng Jia Bang” is having a sentosa outing. It’s been a long time since I’ve met them. I’ve missed their KTV countdown 2008 cos countdown event at work and a few other gatherings. Hopefully it doesn’t rain tomorrow. We shall have a great time at palawan beach! Yeah!
Looking Bleak..
Oh my god, I've reported to my new company and site. The company HQ looks neat and presentable, everyone has their own seat and table. Good for them. The orientation by a lady Kate is also quite comprehensive and complicated enough. So i followed a colleague Joseph back to my new site at around 4 plus. I got a shock. My new office looks 360 degrees different from the company HQ. The office looks practically like a junkyard cum storeroom, cos the first item i see are large rubbish bins! And the number of chairs there can seat the whole army. The total number of people at its fullest are only 5. But the chairs, i've counted, are a grand total of 9! Hai.. I'm immediately turned off by my site on the first day, Monday. This leads me to see a doctor, cos i'm already sick, and got 2 days mc. So for my 2nd day, i'm actually not working, resting at home. And so yesterday, considered my second day, which i've told myself numerously that everything is going well, i will be alright. But sad to say, no, i'm still not convinced i can continue to stay there for long. I decided to call my previous site (which is now under this current company of mine already, we lost the contract from my ex-company to this current company) and asked my colleague to talk to the user to try to get me back to my ex-site.
Please, let me go back!!
Moving On..
What is Work?
To some of us, it's just day to day responsibilities to carry out and every end of the month, you get what you deserve in monetary form (salary). To me, it's carrying people's shit around. Yah, my colleagues keep thinking that I'll always be around them and they can continue to be lazy for all they care. Apart from carrying out my own duties and dozen of paperwork to do, I still have to handle some of their duties too. Please look at me, I'm your engineer, but I sometimes feel I have to do things which only technicians do. Not that I mind, but you do have to consider the fact that I'm still your superior and the minimum you can do is giving me respect. Who knows someday I will be your head? I wish that day will come soon and by then, you will all know what is call W.O.R.K.
Opportunities keep on knocking..
I've always heard about opportunities knock at every people's doors and they should grab the chance while they can. Well, opportunities for me is not knocking at my door, but at my handphone! And I never expect myself to resign after working for such a short time in a company. It's definitely not my style. I'm a loyal staff, in case you don't know me well. I'm not "really" that loyal (not those who can work for the company for more than 10 years that type), but I consider myself to stay in the company for at least 2 or 3 years before moving on.. Even so, I can say this opportunity definitely is knocking at the right time. My current company is just so unstable, everyone is resigning and being retrenched, we've lost a total of 3 contracts at one straight go (because of bad management, for sure), chaos is the word for the company right now. I'm under no security of my job, my bosses like politics as if it's like drinking coffee, and they are stirring the human hearts all the time. What happen to keeping loyal staff and think before you start retrenching people? In the end, you actually think of retaining some of them back again. Oh my god, as if people need your job. (oh yah, some do, cos they can't get a job elsewhere)(why?)(due to incompetency), where's the trust people give to you when they sign the employment letter, how come it's so easy to produce retrenchment letters? So what's the results? No more loyal staff in the company (left only the slimes and foxes), and you get a pile of shit eventually from the rest of the staff remaining in the company. Serves you right! Lucky for me, I'm out of here soon. Yeah!!
28 January 2007 - Happy New Year Post
Oh my, has it been this long? My lack / lag is definitely in my genes.. My interest is forever "3 minutes".. Hehe..
I've just passed my Jap Intermediate 1, but I've forego my Inter 2 class cos my interest in japanese is getting way way lesser, it's not easy to study jap at all! Looking at all the vocabs to memorise, the particles, the grammar, the most difficult part is doing conversion from english to jap. I shall take my break and see how / when my interest will come back. Then I shall take my next step.
This is the 5th month of my new job. Yah, I've changed my job too. Quit SMM on sep '06 due to some problems between me n peng soon. But I guess that's for the better. Since I've got my degree, it's really time to advance on. But this new company really sucks, imagine, no 13th month AWS, no FSM allowances, all the incentives gone.. A lot of things missed out, but it's all worth it cos I'm now managing a Data Centre, which is very challenging! A lot of things to learn, from M&E systems to management of people (i've actually got supervisors n technicians under me!), everyday is a learning process for me, enriching experience. And I'm sure this will be a great stepping stone for me. My next step is either a senior executive or venture into managerial post. I hope I'll be fully prepared for all other challenges ahead.
Chinese New Year is coming. Wishing all of us a Happy Happy Chinese New Year and lots of good things to be happening! Blessed us all.
3 months have passed..
3 months have passed since I've wrote an entry.. During these 3 months, I've been having a lot of adventures, places & events that I have been and that have happened include going to Fort Canning for nature walk, celebrating my sis's birthday, been to Om Cafe, meeting ex-colleagues cum buddies at IMM Secret Recipe, having dinner at Cityhall with meimei, celebrating mother's day with mummy, meeting yew tee ex-colleagues at Shaw Towers Creations, been to my Beijing Trip (which I'll write on a separate entry), celebrating ah ling's birthday at Blue Jazz Cafe, and lastly.. My Graduation Day!! This will be a separate issue too, hehe..
First up, it's nature walk with ah ling at Fort Canning.. The feeling that I have over there is peacefulness and serenity.. It's a good place to relax and just take a walk there.. But don't know why, the sun came out very soon and the place is warm and humid.. Slowly, I became more giddy and we decided to leave the park to Liang Court. Below are some of the photos taken..
Next , it's celebration of sis's birthday, actualy day is 17th March.. Bought her a cake from Swenson's, which is mango flavour.. Yumm..
Went to this cafe near Bugis Junction called Om Cafe. The decor there is very nice, thou a bit dim, but had the mysterious and exotic feel hanging in the air. We had a heavy meal and relaxed in the cafe all my ourselves and played the word game. Hehe..
Met up with Irfan buddie, Celine, Ivan and Aaron at IMM Secret Recipe for dinner.. It's been a long time since we've met but we still have that close feeling and still can slick so well.. Could still remember the wondersful days we all had during our Gombak times.. My, how time flies..
Celebrated mother's day and mum received a very beautiful bouquet of flowers from da sao.. We brought back some nice food and had an enjoyable meal..
At Creations, met up with ex-colleagues from Yew Tee.. It's been a long time since we've met and it's the first time Simin joined us. Hehe..
For my Beijing Trip and Graduation which is today, I'll be posting in a separate entry, cos many things to talk about.. Hehe..
What Greek goddess are you?
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Which Norse God or Goddess are you most like?
 | You scored as Freyr.
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Freyr - Freyr is the god of sun and rain, and the patron of bountiful harvests. He is both a god of peace and a brave warrior. He is also the ruler of elves. Freyr is the most prominent and most beautiful of the male members of the Vanir, and is called 'God if the World'. After the merging of the Aesir and the Vanir, Freyr was called 'Lord of the Aesir'. Freyr was also called upon to grant a fertile marriage.
Which of the five elements are you?
This is really accurate!! Because I'm a LEO.. :)
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And it all worked out.. (Part 2)
And I'm back to continue my previous entry.. With regards to the massive jam in front of my building for the whole day, which also nearly caused me to be late for class, is due to closure of the road (from 3 lanes become 1 lane!). My bus was jammed for almost half an hour, which during normal days took around 5 minutes.
After new year's celebration, I returned back to work on Wednesday and met up with Joyce and Jill (my ex-collegue) for dinner on Friday. We went to this restaurant inside Amara Hotel (located in Tanjong Pagar) called Thanying Thai. There, we ordered fish, chicken, vegetables and prawns. We also had ala-carte dessert buffet, which to me, is still okay, but Joyce loved the kuehs a lot.. After dinner, we decided to enter this deserted corner bar called Hue to have a drink. I had my first Bailey's Irish Cream which tastes divine! It's a blend of vodka, whiskey, evaporated milk, almond and coconut extract, and most importantly, chocolate syrup! All in all, the drink plus the excellent romantic ambience in the bar makes me feel dreamy all over. We had a nice chat. It's so comfortable to be around people you like and whom is just happy to be with you. To this, I've taken a lot of photos again! And here they are...
Dinner at Amara & Drinks at Hue
My whole new year's week is packed with programs!! Next up, I went to Sentosa Flower exhibition where all the pretty flowers are being brought to Sentosa for a galore gathering. The whole place is packed with people due to the weekend, lucky my bro-in-law drove and I got my Sentosa Pass, which admit us in free of charge! Hee.. Me, my mum, my sis, my bro-in-law and momo sat happily in the car on Saturday's noon to our destination, Sentosa. This is the first time I've been to the flower exhibition. I heard that Sentosa had been having the exhibition for many years already. Oh well, at least I managed to catch hold of this year's. It's indeed an eye-opener for me!
Sentosa Flower 2006
And this makes the ending of my happy new year celebrations. Hee.. Exciting right? More exciting events coming up, include my school trip to China, Beijing this coming May. It shall also serves as a graduation trip for me, where I'll be going with some of my classmates. The school will be bringing us to see many developments and statutory boards over there. Am excited about this trip. Even brought a suitcase today at BIG's. Hee..
Just now, went to BIG's warehouse sale (at Harbourfront Mall) with my brother and colleague. I brought a new vacuum cleaner, a cordless phone and a suitcase. I'm planning to buy a very petite and cute MP3 player tomorrow. Hee.. My brother bought a lot too, he got himself a new MP3 player, card reader and earphones. It has been a fun day shopping again, even though what I brought are all for the family. Hehe..
Oh well, it's late, better get to bed, till next time.. Good nite..
And it all worked out..
Don't know why, but the road in front of my building is jammed since early morning.. Road diversion? Accident? Hmm....
Yup.. Here I am.. My dissertation all finished up (handed in the final draft on 26th Jan), had a wonderful time during the Chinese New Year, snapped a lot of photos, been through the feeling for the 1st time of being a "sister" (jie-mei) for Simin's wedding, and went to Sentosa Flower 2006 to enjoy the beautiful flowers!! This is what I called Living Life in Enjoyment. Hehe..
Now I'm trying to stay on track my last semester of study, a lot of lectures and tutorials to catch up with but I know I can make it, ever since completing my dissertation. My work, on the other hand, is getting more and more pit ending, am seriously considering whether to look for jobs or not. Just today, I saw PSA looking for people, I am thinking hard about it, my pay here is too low, the job scope is 40% administrative, the people here.. well.. still not bad, but not close either, only thing that's keeping me back will be my manager and colleagues.. Hai, torn between relationship and money again..
Back to more happier matters, Simin's Wedding is a success (with hiccups here and there) ending happily on 20th Jan 2006. I went to her house to be one of the jie-meis before 7am, and after the hoo-haa about the jie-mei angbaos, we went to Mt Faber for photo taking. The dinner started at 8pm, me and meimei took the initiative to tend the counter. For the dinner, I took some photos since I had free time at last, the food tasted quite good, but the timing is too slow, the whole dinner dragged until 11pm (maybe the bride and bridegroom has more than 100 tables to yum-seng with, that's why the late hours) before me and meimei went home to have our well-deserved rest. Ahh... below are the photos!
Photos taken during Simin's Wedding
And after Simin's Wedding come the preparation of Chinese New Year. This year, my mum is extremely busy, as my sis-in-law's side plus my bro-in-law's side - next-of-kin, all came to my house to have steamboat feast. Have an enjoyable time thou, as my house had never been so crowded before.. Anyway, photos say the most words!
My reunion dinner 2006
Next up, not forgetting to mention my new year's dinner with ah joy and ah ling and alvin.. We also had steamboat at ah joy's place few days later!
New Year Dinner with good friends..
Steamboat at Joy's
Oh, need to go to school already, shall continue with my part 2 later on.. Hee.. 
Whatz up..
Dear all,
Kindly take note that the deadline for submission of Dissertation has been changed from 16th January 2006 to 26th January 2006 at 6:00pm sharp.
Whew.. (let one breathe out) Lucky me, 10 more days added to aid my rushing hours. Heard the school will only extend for one time, no more extensions!
Oh my, today met up with my supervisor, been emailing n calling him non-stop for his approval for my dissertation contents and survey. Another luck is he did not scold me, nor find faults with me, only lament a bit of "I should have done this 2 months ago..", but overall, he's still the best supervisor I can have. So he promised to amend my survey by tomorrow so that I can send my survey out for data collection. And I'm planning to meet meimei's friend (Xingru) who knew a bit if SPSS (Statistical Analysis Software), hoping she can help me at least to derive something out.. I've promised him, by hook or by crook, I'll produce the last 2 chapters to let him check and amend by next Friday, 20th Jan, which is also Simin's Wedding Day!!
Am supposed to be her "jie-mei" together with meimei, but think she decided to let us help out only at night, we shall see how again. Simin shall be the prettiest bride so far that I've seen (saw her in a white and short wedding dress during her ROM last year and she looks absolutely stunning) because she is very tall (1.75m) and not very thin (slim and sleek in actual terms) and very pretty (got almond shaped face with nice big eyes and very fair complexion). Shall take many many photos on that day for all to see! Hee..
Anyway, on sidetrack, I've decided to perm and highlight my hair. The product - - - wavy and red streaks of coloured hair.. Hehe.. This is the first time in my life to perm and colour hair!! So I've decided to take a photo of my front view and back view to remember this! Hehe.. Cost me only $60 because it's done by an ex-saloon auntie in her house at Queenstown. But now 3 days after the perm, my hair is now like "siao", because my friends told me it should look that way - crazy and messy. I think more likely I don't know how to maintain.. Oh well.. Maybe I'll just buy a styling hair spray from Watson's (if I ever go out again) and set the curly-ness out again. Hee..
My Front View..
.. And Back View
Praying hard, fingers crossed
Reminder emails have been sent by the Office of Real Estate. These are the exact words:
---> Please take note that the date for submission of your dissertation falls on 16th January 2006, (Monday). You are required to submit an unbound copy of your dissertation excluding "Acknowledgement" page to the department at 6:00 pm sharp. Download the form, 'Supervisor Certification for Submission' from the IVLE workbin. Place your dissertation into a brown envelop and paste an additional title page (refer to attachment) on top of the envelop. Dissertation title for Examination is updated, do refer to the file before submission. <---
I'm so panicky that I don't even have time to think of new resolutions for the new year, except completing my dissertation on time without failing and graduate successfully by Jul/Aug 2006; and of saving some money for a much well-deserved trip abroad. 4 years of hard studying and hibenating is seriously no mean feat. Trust me.
And now it's back to typing and killing my brain cells lump by lump.. Praying hard and keeping my fingers crossed..
Shopping Spree...
Last night, I was at Plaza Singapura with my secondary school mates, Shuling, Xiuling and Murali for dinner gathering. We settled ourselves down on a table starting at 8pm. And we got off the table only after 11.30pm! Hehe.. Cos there just so many things to catch up. Imagine we haven't meet one another for 1 year plus. Shuling is still as jovial as ever, Xiuling is still with Simon and planning to get married next year and erm, for Murali, he's a bit quiet, cos maybe it's the first time he joined us, so not yet in the "click". After we left the foodcourt, we saw many happenings in PS. A crowd has gathered at the center stage, waiting for lucky draw. And a lot of shops mainly at the 1st n 2nd floors are still opened. What a good way to attract more shoppers after mid-night. Hehe. So me and the 2 gals decided to have mid-nite mini-shopping spree while we bade farewell to murali.
Reached home nearly 2am, but am a happy girl with 6 pairs of socks and a pink cotton jacket! Hehe..
Happenings
Yeah, my exams are finally over! But all is not well, as I'm busy with my final year thesis. It sucks big time, cos I still haven't come up with anything concrete and my deadline is less than 1 month. I think the main reason is I've been slacking for the past year, with a lot of time depending on my classmate to do and take for granted she'll always be there.
This is WRONG.
Always depend on yourself and not others, you'll rather learn the hard way first, and enjoy your fruits of labour later on, if not, you'll fall terribly and start to blame other people for the things you yourself should have done in the first place. This is a good lesson I've learned. Hai, lucky it's not too late, I'll continue to "pia" very very hard to complete my thesis! Give myself encouragement, reward myself later, work hard, work hard! My mum and my meimei is also giving me a lot of support and concern, so I shall not let them down also.
Oh yah, Wilbur, my manager's puppy came over and stayed at my house for 1 week. A lot of events that have happened...:
1st and 2nd day --- he came and we played with him happily, so happy until I can't finish reading my notes for my last exam paper! Haha.. But Wilbur is sooooooo cute! He's also extremely bubbly and intelligent, only thing is, as a puppy, he'll cry a lot, and his crying is howling, hearing it pains my heart. And he kept on itching and scratching his body and legs all over, my sister brought momo home and momo dare not play with him. My sister asked me to bring him to see the vet for treatment (cos my manager told me he's having schnauzer pimples and in the midst of healing) and checking cos she suspect it's skin diease.
3rd day (after my last paper) --- my mum and I brought him to the animal centre at Sunset Way, he's barking all the way to the vet in the taxi, lucky the uncle never scolded or chase us down, think Wilbur is thinking are we giving him away again, poor boy.. After waiting for half an hour, it's our turn. the vet (Dr. Heng - a very nice lady) diagnosed Wilbur to having contagious skin diease called scabies, which can happen to any breed of doggies, especially for puppies and young doggies. (all about scabies) She told us Wilbur is in the final stage of scabies, which is quite bad. The vet did a skin scrap test to verify the condition of Wilbur before giving him treatment. The medicine she gave is Revolution (to control and kill the mites), which should be applied on Wilbur's neck once every 2 weeks. She told us the itchness should continue for the next 2 to 3 weeks and asked us to be mentally prepared to see him to continue to be very itchy. My mum shed tears for Wilbur many times when she saw how itchy Wilbur gets, he's just a baby but he had to suffer this kind of diease. My sister grumbled about my manager about not taking enough care for him, and going away to Bangkok when he knows that Wilbur is sick. Oh well, for me, I'll just continue to try my best to take good care of Wilbur since I've already promised my manager.
4th to 8th day (my manager touch-down back to sg) --- I've been talking and feeding and cleaning Wilbur up ever since we knew of his skin diease. Even though I have skin allergy am a bit afraid to go near Wilbur, but I still tell myself he's not at fault for the situation he's in. Afterall, he's only 6 months old and still a baby. Plus he's so lovable and cute-looking, I just can't bear to ignore him. So everyday after work, I'll talk to him, feeding him antibiotics and his meal and his teething bone. Now he need to be fed for his food from the palm! Hiaks, hiaks. This shall teach my manager to take more care and attention for him. And everynight, when Wilbur is out to pee pee and put put, I'll clean and sterilise his cage, so that the mites that fell off from his body can never jump back. And so, the last day, my manager came with his son and dau. After giving him instructions and updates about Wilbur's condition, Wilbur is finally going home. He cried as I placed him inside my manager MPV. Maybe he'll miss me? But not for long, cos he'll be back to his permanent home and in good hands of my manager. Anyway, I'll be posting Wilbur's photo up here later. He's sooooo cute!
Get well soon, Wilbur!
On the 6th day, which is a thursday, I'm on leave, as my mum is going to SNEC (Singapore National Eye Centre) to do laser eye operation on her right eye (the same eye she did her cataract operation). My sister and bro-in-law came along too. This is a small day operation, as the patient just need to sit on the seat and the doctor will "blast" the laser on the patient's eye. And my mum is back on her feet the very next day, as there is no usage of anesthetic. We are still a bit worried as the doctor highlighted to us that the other eye (left side) is starting to develop cataract also. She may need to go for operation again next year once the cataract matured on her left eye. Hai, that's why I've been wanting to bring my mum overseas for holiday, cos life is short and unpredictable, while we are healthy and able to walk, we should make use of the time we have and enjoy ourself while we can. Now I'm still persuading my mum to go Fishing at Sibu Island with my manager and colleague during x'mas, but she's still not interested. Lucky she's still interested in the Ipoh/Cameron Highlands Trip, which is postponed to Jan next year as the driver is booked for the whole month. Oh well, we shall see how again. Ah ling asked about going to Tioman island with her in Jan also, planning to bring my mum along also. Hehe. Will confirm with her by the end of the month.
Sidenote: I'll might be shifting to another webblog soon.
What City Do You Belong In?
You Belong in London
A little old fashioned, and a little modern.
A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.
A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.
No wonder you and London will get along so well.
Exam Period & Coming Holiday Seasons
2 papers down, 1 more paper to go.. My brain cells basically died by half already, and I do not have enough leave to apply to study for my last paper which is next Monday. Have to struggle very very hard on Sat & Sun. No choice, cos I'm not very clever so cannot study smart, and I console myself that I'm only left with 1 more semester before I shall officially graduate! Jia you jia you jia you!
On another note, my manager, ah lim, will be leaving his puppy (6 months old Schnauzer called Wilbur) at my home for 1 week, cos he'll be going to Bangkok for holiday. I've asked my mummy to clear up an area in the kitchen to cater for his cute coming, heard that he's quite a dear and sweet clever puppy! I've decided to bring Wilbur to go walk walk every alternate evenings after coming home from work. Oh dear, hope after this, I would not be obsessed with buying and keeping a doggy!
Cute pic with Monalisa!
(from www.jeansdogshop.com)
With so many of the people I known are going on a holiday, I wanna plan for a trip on Dec for myself also! Hmm.. I'm actually planning to go Ipoh and Cameron Highlands leh.. Nice nice sceneries..
My sister and bro-in-law finally got a flat in redhill (the new flats just opposite redhill mrt), but it's a bit low, 3rd floor leh.. They might wanna give up, but giving up means forfeiting $2k leh! Most seriously consider it through before applying and getting a flat, in Singapore, it's not cheap okie!
Last, last Sun, I witnessed an opening of a lighted tower located at mount faber. Thanks to Ku, I realised that it's a X'mas tree leh! Wow, there are fireworks in the night sky and laser performance (can't see what's showing from my window) and the X'mas tree have a series of flashing lightings, which I have taped down (but no place to download).
Can see the blue lights flickering?
Lighted X'mas Tree!!
This X'mas, will have lesser celebrations due to the absence of A and B, only friends left will be ah ling, ah joy, meimei and of cos, hong kah khakis . Friends are really precious, so do treasure them while you can! Have a nice thanksgiving and x'mas!
Things to do on a Holiday
On my holiday, all I did was do my project and watch tv. Pathetic? Neh.. Because I know a year later from today, I'll be happily going out with my friends and family, when I'm free from my studies! Yeah! No way am I going to study again (okay, maybe short courses ranging from few months to 2 years, definitely not 4 years degree courses!). But for now, all I can do is think up of a list of what to do on a holiday.. Hehe..
1. Family Outing, shopping and dinner.
2. Climb/trek a mountain.
3. Play with momo at sister's place.
4. Make use of the 2-holidays-in-a-week and fly off to other places.
5. Go to a beach and picnic/chill-out.
6. Go to JB.
7. Shopping or watch a movie or sing KTV.
8. Engage in community work.
9. Go pubbing/clubbing on the eve of holiday.
Hmm.. My life looks boring.. But I like simple life! :D
Holiday Seasons
Happy Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! :D
This week is a week filled with public holidays, with tomorrow for celebration of Deepavali for our Hindus and Thursday for celebratin of Hari Raya for our Muslims! That's what I love about Singapore, we are a country with many races and we can all live in harmony together. I, myself, have a lot of hindu and muslim friends. Especially in my previous office, we used to celebrate these festivals together whereby we would gather and visit a colleague's house and have a makan session and chat. Those were such happy times.. And I missed them all.. :cry:
After watching a chinese serial from SCV just a while ago, I learnt from a nun (the serial is those pugilistic drama with flying fighting and magical powers - a lot of warriors, monks, nuns and demoness), and yes, a nun indeed(!), that hatred will only cause yourself pain. Those were her last words before she died in that show. She also said to treat others with benevolence and with kind thoughts. After listening to those last words, I think what she said is right. It's very tired, sad and painful to hate a person. I rather forgive than be angry with that person for long. Which is why I have learnt to let go once again about the laments I've poured out here. When I first learned of this matter, I am angry. But after talking to myself and to my friends helped, and I've learnt that not every things that happen in life, we must hang on to it tightly. Only those happy memories that are worth remembering are those memories which we should cherish and hold on tighter.
We humans should not live in hatred forever. And really, trust me, hatred and jealousy these 2 words, can make you do a lot of nasty things. Things you might regret later in life. So, my friends out there, remember that hatred is not a solution to problems. Rather, like ah ling said --- Face each day with happy thoughts and fill yourself with happiness. You might be able to see things in a different light.
A recap of the past week (Part 2)..
Having part 2 is to separate my feelings from part 1.
Because now I'll be talking about happy things! First up, the photos I've taken for mummy's birthday dinner is uploaded and displayed right below..:
Setting up table..
Mummy busy busy..
And the food came!! yummy..
Along with my favourite chicken wings! Ahh..
Homemade "Bak Kut Teh" by my mummy..
Momo kaypoh-ing around..
And everyone started eating.. my sister feeding bro-in-law, jason.. so loving..
While momo pacing around, wondering got any side snacks for her or not..
And everybody relaxing at the sofa after a full dinner for tv and small chats..
Mummy giving "victory" sign for the wonderful celebration.. muaks!!
Last Saturday, a fever night at Partyworld again with my ex-colleagues. We are truly a funk and full of fun gang! Just look at the photos! With them around, there are sure to be fun and laughter, when I'm with them, my smile and laughter is on 100%! Gee.. :D
Me and Mynn san!
Me and Yvonne!
And the party starts rolling..!
Stripper driven to a corner.. hiaks hiaks..
Photo with the stripper and baka.. haa..
Me and Mynn san again.. hee..
I'm hungry.. for legs!! muahahaa.. (mynn san's leg)
Loving couple No. 1.. Eric and Mynn san
Loving couple No. 2.. Eileen and Eric
Loving couple No. 3..! Elvin & wife
The group of ladies.. (L-R) Elvin's wife, Eileen, Mynn, Wendy, Kris, Me and Yvonne
The more mature gang.. (L-R) Yee, Edmund, Elvin & Wife
Beer, anyone?
Oh, poor baby.. cheers lah!!
Gan.. bei..!!
And the party goes on rolling..
But Eric can't make it anymore.. Zzz..
While the other Eric continues to mambo..
And Wendy is crowned our Superstar!! Yeah!! *applause*
And we ended the fun and laughter at Jurong East's 24 hours coffeeshop with Teochew porridge before going home in individual vehicles.. Till we meet again, pals..
A recap of the past week..
It's been a long time since I've blogged. I have been very, very busy. And lack of sleep! Last week, I've handed in 1 project (which consists of 6 person in a group) and 1 tutorial (5 person a group), where all had been done by me ALONE. Man, how I slogged, sleeping at 1 to 2 am everyday till Thursday when I hand in the tutorial. For the effort, I got a "Good" for that tutorial which got our group a pack of chocolates given by the lecturer! How cute of him! Hee..
Anyway, I have to complain about "this" matter this time. Only last Thursday did I realise how stupid I am. I volunteered to do the project and tutorial, thinking that A and B will be helping C for another project which is due on Thursday also. But when I approach C about the project, she told me she's doing it herself also! So that means A and B have been doing nothing all along! Which makes both me and C like idiots because C thought A and B are helping me with my project. Woah, talking about making use of each other, this is actually worse, because A and B actually lied to me about finishing the project when I enquired during dinner.
To think they actually wanted to claim credit for something they had not done! I'm absolutely fed up with their actions and doings. To think they are the one who told me to do some "soul searching" and what with "their conscious is clear" thingy..
All BULLSHIT! I seriously believe that they should be the one doing some self-reflection on themselves. Don't keep thinking that the world owe them. They have not been through hard life before, they don't know the pain of sufferings, they don't have to worry about money and bills and school fees, so they think they are the greatest in the world, invincible, "nothing cannot be solved" attitude and thinking they are the best in the world.
I am right in saying they behave like lesbians, because once again, they have proved themselves to everyone that they are. Through their actions and behaviour. Through their giggles and carrying bags for one another and taking handphones for one another. All that I've said about them, I never regret saying it. Because I know I am right.
I know without anything concrete or with no blowing wind, the leaves would not move. I saw it with my own eyes and I am right in saying them. With A's stupid regular messages about "I don't know what to think about our friendship anymore, is it real or is it fake?" Of course it's real if you believe in 3 of us, and only a pathetic person will think a friendship is fake, even after 3 years of spending time together! I shall not comment on how few friends A have (maybe she thought all her friends are fake), or how easily influenced is B (she may be influenced by A about our friendship is fake afterall).
Urgghh... To think I actually apologised to them so many times! Thinking back, I really am a weakling and a chicken. My mum is right, should have just confronted them at that point of time and give them a piece of my mind, and leave them to be "loving and caring" and discussing what a crazy person I am. But at that point of time, I just wanna spend the rest of my 4th year in school peacefully and graduate. At that point of time, I thought we 3 can be normal friends again.
But now I dun care anymore. Let them think what they want. If they are truly my friends, they should have patched up with me and proved to me that they are not lesbians and they don't behave like one. Who cares about the classmates also? What happen between us, we don't have to account for other people. Both of them are just plain guilty, that's why they vent their anger on me for no good reason again. What with their 2 options, either "Tell the classmates we 3 are through" or "Talk it out and settle the problem once and for all". WTF!! (Sorry, first time using this 3 words, and I strongly felt I have to use them!) I am the crazy girl who kept on apologising and messaging them to forgive me, and both of them messaged angrily back that "I did not give them enough time to think it through" and "Me and my philosophy, I only hear what I wanna hear, I only reply what I want"?! Now classmates start asking them questions, they wanted to solve the problem suddenly? They suddenly have "enough time" to think through?!
Really, the kind of people that exist in this world. I really see through so called "real" friends and "fake" friends. Yah, so it's true I insulted both of you behave like lesbians and that both of you protect one another really well. Now you both really proved what I have said. I'm sorry for hurling the words at both of you, but I'm not apologetic at all and don't regret one bit that I said you both behave like lesbians. Because you both are! And right in front of all the eyes of the classmates!
I hope you both live happily ever after in both of your imaginary little world, with perfect "friendship" you both adopted. I'm glad I escaped early. If not, I shall be A's puppet forever. Even though now I have to do all the assignments myself, at least I know I'm happy. I know I am free at last again. Good luck to you, B. Sorry I can't protect you from being A's puppet anymore. You shall forever be stuck with her since you will never learn to be independant. I actually sympathise you.
Whew.... That's it. I've finally vent all the anger I felt for the past few months out. I don't care what other people think now. They may think I'm an outcast, I'm a wierdo, I'm a detestable person, I don't care about all these anymore. What I do now, I wanna be happy about it and I wanna be who I am again. Nobody can stop me from doing anything I like and want. What I do is for myself. I don't have to report to anyone about how I live my life. People's comments, especially both of theirs, I no longer heck care. Because I live my own life, and nobody can stop me from living it. Me and my philosophies, I LOVE THEM!
So.. enough about both of them. They only take up space in my blog! I got a whole wonderful life ahead of me! Time to catch up. With both of them gone in my life, I actually realised that I have a lot of other friendly classmates in my class. During breaks, I will be having nice chats with my other classmates, and they actually sound more real to me.
Wedding dinner
My grand-aunt's youngest son, my uncle, has his wedding dinner last night at Hotel Rendezvous Ballroom. My grandaunt is the happiest person in the world because her youngest son has settled down at last. Their opening entrance song where the bride and bridegroom enter into the ballroom was by Shania Twain's From This Moment. And the waiters and waitress will pour water into nitrogen ice to create the smokey effect. Indeed, a girl is prettiest at her own wedding. The souvenir is a keychain with a bride and bridegroom side by side. So unique and cute. Hee..
Congratulations to YC and Grace!! :P
Job interview
Went to an interview yesterday at Tanjong Pagar. The manager offered me the position immediately and even wanted me to sign the appointment letter on the spot. I told him calmly I need to go back and consider the offer, due to my many commitments. It's a very tempting offer, as the offered salary is very much higher than my current one! But in the end, I decided to decline their generous offer, because I don't think I can manage my studies together with a new job.
This job is a manager post, and the responsibility I'm going to carry will be greater than my current executive post. So I called the manager and gently decline their offer.
But the manager called me back in the evening again to ask me to re-consider again! Urgghhh.. He wanted to increase on my allowances as compensation. Oh my, oh my. I really don't know I got such potential leh! Maybe because they need people urgently and my current exposure of high secured premises is a leap advantage among other candidates, that's why they can offer higher pay to me.
But after a night's thinking and a chat with my sister, I decided to decline them again. Don't think it's fair to the company also, because I know I cannot put 100% of my attention on work as my studies is still on top priority now. Some friends thought I'm right in my decision, some wonder why I dun go for it because there won't be 2nd chance. I personally felt I should not let down my own principle lor..
--- With more money comes greater responsibility. This is so true.
The Apprentice
Anybody watching The Apprentice on Channel 5, every sunday 10pm? Even though I'm not from the business or investment trade, this show really gives me a lot of inspirations and lessons to learn. Not that I will ever become a entrepreneur, I felt that from the way Donald Trump chooses his prospective employee, he really think far, far ahead. I think I'm only suitable to think far ahead on my holiday trips after my graduation and how to work overseas in China or Dubai one day. To start a business on my own(?), eh, better think twice, cos one of my personality is "not enough perserverence". Haha..
From what I gathered from the show so far (I've watched 2 seasons already), I've learnt that chances are given by people, but you also must learn to grab hold of the opportunity. Also, people do make mistakes, but you should be courageous enough to admit it and learn from your mistakes. In this way, you can be a better person.
In a way, you are what you want to be and nobody can teach you how to lead your own life. If you have choosen a particular path for yourself, remember there's no turning back. Yeah.
Latest gossips
The owner of the building I'm in charge now will always ask me and my manager: "Any latest gossips?" whenever he enters the office. Almost everyday he will ask, monday to friday, breaks will be when he's on leave. Haha.. My manager and I will reply him if there's any latest happenings going on in the building, other than that, we will keep the real gossips ourselves! Hehe..
The building owner is really a capable chap. He's only 30 years old but his position is already so high up in the top management, just below the director in that department. He drives a sports car and he's living in a condominium. Not to forget the most important thing - he looks quite cute - though he can be a bit of a playboy. There's always a flaw in everyone! But I can say he's quite faithful lah, cos he has a steady girlfriend for many years. So far, their relationship is quite steady.
He treated our team very well, always giving us a lot of support, plus he will teach me a lot of technical things and the way we should lead our life. In a way, he's quite wise, though sometimes he can be quite childish in his actions. A good person for me to investigate and study on on human behaviours. Hee..
Next on, it's my manager, ah lim. He's the most considerate manager I ever have! Next to Mr Png (my HDB manager), he's the next one I really respect. He's always patient with me and Ishak, always guiding us the correct path and way to get things done, and giving us sound advices whenever we need help. He's also my best teacher cos I will always pester him to vet my assignments and giving me comments on other private issues. I can say we clicked really well. He liked to say we 3 are a great team, cos he got the ideas, I can produce it out for him (cos I'm good at computer software), and Ishak has all the technical experiences. Hee.. Really cherish this team, really can't bear to leave them next year after I graduate leh..
Next gossip. I had a long chat with Rachael yester-noon, mostly about friends, of course including real and fake ones.. We think alike with friendships and especially on the one I'm facing problem now. She had more experiences than me on about friends, so she can give me more advices and the correct approach to problems encountered. But right now, her attention is on her 2 daughters and family, so she advised me not to think so much also. Yeah, she's right. Only time will tell who your real friends are.
Okie lah, end of gossips! :D
Now I'm still rushing to finish my 3 assignments, I have not touched my dissertation yet leh! Plus I'm having migraines again, this time is left side. When you have migraines, you cannot think of anything cos your head will be thumping thumping, extremely disturbing.. Die die die.. My supervisor must have given up hope on me, so I must really gather up my strength and determination to produce something soon. Jia you, jia you!!