Emotional Roller-coaster

Recently for the past couple of months, I’ve been through a lot. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Physically wise, I felt I’m putting on a lot of weight. During December when my colleague is on leave, I’ll be super busy attending to all complains & feedbacks in the day, and settling all paperwork at night. Because of this working arrangement, I’ve been having late lunches and later dinners (which sometimes become supper!) which caused me to lose appetite and thus the weight loss. But now that my colleague is back, we can depend on one another again. Which means my appetite came back and I gain back the weight I loss and many more! Luckily, a dance school is going to open soon at my workplace. Which means I can finally get to yoga, pilates, mtv/hip-hop dance lessons fuss-free! Yeah!

 

Mentally and emotionally wise, I recently got to know a very close colleague couple of mine who broke up. And it seems that they have been on rough waters more than a year ago. Oh my, from the days in Town Council where I will be sitting on the backseat facing their backs, where we will go for lunches and dinners and outings together, both of them are always in front of me and portraying the best couple image I have. I’m really shocked. Mentally. Emotionally. I’ve always believed that true love can stand through hard times and all times. I’ve always believed that as long as I got you in my heart, and you got me in your heart, any dimensions will not tear us apart. But sad to say, human emotions are fragile and unfathomable. People do change over time and so do feelings.

 

Thinking back when I first learned about their break-up is actually when the guy brought a new gf to our outing on New Year’s Eve. Thunder and lightning actually strike in front of me and into my heart, which freezes for that spilt second. Never before have I had this kind of sensation. I wanted to flew to that KTV pub and confront both the guy and the new gf. But as I’m working for the countdown, my duties and responsibilities tied me back. I contained my emotions then, and never showed out. Sometimes, I do admire myself for always able to portray a strong front in front of everyone when I’m breaking inside, but I guess some of us learn the hard way of life and just have the power to survive on in any kind of crisis.